A question arose about the authorship of the last two Weekly Wisdoms.  I did write them.  When I say things like, "this came to me in written form," I'm trying to convey a sense I often have that the material writes itself somehow – that words seem to come through me and not necessarily from me.  

       Anyway, what follows is something I did not write.  It's from the work of the late psychiatrist and spiritual teacher, David R. Hawkins, and is a compilation of quotes from his book, Truth vs. Falsehood.   The quotes are featured on a YouTube video, Pathway to Freedom and Happiness, created by LaMarAzura. 

       While the language, at times, feels foreign to me, I found the ideas interesting, thought provoking and worth sharing.

Pathway to Freedom and Happiness

       The steps out of failure, unhappiness, frustration, lack, want, anger and depression are deceptively simple.  Life is a voyage, comparable to being out at sea, in which a shift of one degree on the ship's compass will determine by the end of the trip whether or not one is hundreds of miles off course. 

       The strongest tool, which already exists within, is the spiritual will itself, which when firmly set will face and take on any obstacle.  It is this spiritual will that determines the success of the venture.  From subjective experience, as well as many years of clinical practice, spiritual education and research, it is confirmed that the spiritual will is the primordial rudder that determines, not only this lifetime, but also the course of one's consciousness over great expanses of time, classically termed karma. 

       From consciousness research, one can quickly confirm that the adoption of an attitude immediately invites in that entire field of consciousness, which then unwittingly begins to dominate the personality and thoughts.  What are considered to be "my thoughts" are merely thoughts common to that particular energy field and are not really personal at all. 

       It is well to avoid, rather than oppose, negativity and resist the temptation and illusion that one can play with it and not get burned.  The nonintegrous fields of consciousness contain seductive programs that are extremely cunning. 

       While the frantic person flails in the water and drowns, the more evolved person learns how to float.  The ultimately buoyant sea that supports spiritual progress is the overall, powerful field of consciousness. 

       It is the power of this field that precludes the possibility of even death itself.  Man has intuited and known this since the very beginning of civilization and has been aware that life cannot be extinguished, but can only change form.

       Here's something that first moved through me in written form nearly ten years ago.  The first half you may recognize as an expanded version of the cosmos story I shared last week.  The second half tells the rest of the story.  While the narrator is younger in this piece, the story still speaks to me.  Perhaps it will also speak to you.

Cosmos and Growth

        Stories don’t have to be totally factual to be true.  Cosmological stories, my favorites, are especially hard to prove.  But the cosmos is in us –- and so are the stories.  Here’s one about the universe and how we evolve in it.

Cosmos

        In the beginning, there is no-thing.  Pure being.  The silence of God.  This void, because it is the silence of God, is quite fertile.  The emptiness is full.  In an attempt to name this emptiness that cannot be named, physicists might use the term “singularity.”

        From the fertile void flares forth a great blossoming, an explosion of love, the energy of God.  Love is a name by which God is known.  This energy of love first shows itself as an ecstatic expansion of light, then heat.  Creativity and destruction dance ceaselessly together, as love gives birth, gives death, gives birth again.

        Time and space are born.  As the original burst of energy slows and cools, at precisely the right rate, it becomes the universe we see – the stars and planets, the rocks and trees, the animals and humans, like you and me.

        The universe is growing and alive.  It’s very intelligent and, I think, wise.  Because its essence is love, it is not neutral (as some people think), and it certainly is not malevolent.

        In this story, love and everything in the universe is trinitarian in nature.  Uniqueness, oneness and relatedness are fundamental to all that is.  Every person and every blade of grass is one of a kind (unique and individual), one with the universe (all originating in the singularity of sacred emptiness) and forever connected in a web of relationship with everything else (the ultimate internet). 

        Relationship is a never-ending dance of uniqueness and oneness.  We are each so different and yet have so much in common.  We are one and we are two.  Whether we care to or not, we are all dancing with the paradoxical mystery of oneness in two-ness and two-ness in oneness.  We dance, not just with our partners, but with everyone and everything. 

        How often do we open our hearts to the music and soften to the rhythm?

        So, in this story of cosmos, Pure Being (the Nameless No-Thing) becomes Love, which becomes the beloved.  All creation, including each of us, is the offspring of Love.

Growth

        Human growth mirrors, in reverse image, the path of the universe.  In this story, our growth has three stages, each wonderful in its own way.  And naturally, since it’s human, our growth is not particularly tidy or orderly.  We move back and forth among the stages, willy-nilly, true to our nature. 

        The stages are really tasks.  The first task is softening to love – letting ourselves be loved.  When we soften and open to the ever-present energy of love, we are healed and made whole.  Like daisies basking in sunshine, we blossom, each in our own unique way.  For a long time, as a psychotherapist, I thought this was the whole story. 

        The next stage is the movement from being loved to being love.  While the first stage heals the wounded ego, the second stage expresses soul.  It’s not about “me” anymore.  It’s about becoming light – shining, radiating, warming.  Naturally and effortlessly, a healed presence becomes a healing presence.  The light of love flickers at first, then grows more steady.  Have you noticed how some people seem to glow?

        Surely, I thought, this must be the end of the story.  It can’t get any better than this.  But no, like in the late night commercial, there’s more!

        The third growth movement is toward the experience of pure being, a movement from being love to being no-thing.  Mystical traditions in all religions speak of a silence, a sacred emptiness, where separation from God ceases.  All attachment and ego identity disappear.  Every thing is gone, and all things are possible.  The universe blossomed from this profound peace.  It’s where all miracles originate.

        At first, during times of meditation, I had only glimpses of this quiet place.  At some point, I can’t pinpoint just when, glimpses became visits.  Never boring, visits now are irregular and unpredictable, and usually don’t last long. (How good can I stand it, after all?) 

        We are the visited, not the visitor.  More than we seek, we are sought.  Sacred silence finds us, and we remember.  We never return from such encounters unchanged.  We may seem the same, but we’re not.

        Some people spend a lot of time in no-time, unself-consciously one with God in the silence of pure being.   It’s become home for them.  Eventually, in this story, it becomes home for all of us.

        Alpha meets Omega.  The end and the beginning are one.

A Cosmos Story

       In dealing with mysteries like the nature of the universe, most spiritual traditions resort to story, which is my favorite way to speak about that which can't be defined.  In group Thursday night, we played with cosmological stories.  Here's one I like.  As with all big stories, it is, at best, a partial truth.

       Once there was no time, no space, no thing – only Sacred Silence, an intelligent, fertile, creative emptiness.  Suddenly, from this deep quiet, there emerged an explosion of LOVE.  This explosion marked the beginning of time and space and led to the creation of matter and all things. 

       In this story, LOVE is the first expression of Sacred Silence.  Everything in the universe is an expression and manifestation of LOVE.  And the intelligence of Sacred Silence permeates it all.

       Eventually, humans arrived on the scene – bringing curiosity, the capacity for awe and an inclination to wonder.  We humans yearn for the unseen within the seen.  Restless at heart, we search – hungry to know the LOVE we express.

       We create meaning and share stories.  We melt into quiet and remember.

Lent

       On the Ash Wednesdays of my childhood, I remember receiving an ashen cross on my forehead as somber words were spoken:  "Remember, man, that thou art dust, and to dust thou shalt return."  It was a powerful ritual that stayed with me all day long, as did the ashes.

       Since then, I've come to see Lent as a time of remembering and a time for preparation – preparation for resurrection. And I've come to see resurrection as an uplifting, a lifting of the veil that tricks us into feeling separate.  Resurrection transforms us.  It returns us to oneness – and to the spaciousness from which we came. 

       Honoring the season in group Thursday night, we gathered in a circle and anointed each forehead with a fragrant oil and these words: 

       "Remember, you are a unique and beautiful word in the vocabulary of God.  You are, already, that which you seek.  Whatever you hunger for is within you now.  Prepare for resurrection."

       Remember?

Two Thoughts

       In my sense of the universe, each of us is a word in the vocabulary of God.  If so, how can we think that one expression of God is better than another?  I'm invited to let go of judgment and striving.  As Richard Moss says:  "We are, already, that which we seek."

       As we allow our hearts to expand to true spaciousness, we find that we are bigger than any problem we can have – and, perhaps, bigger than any problem the world can have.  LOVE is the solution.

Communication

       If writing is like giving birth, the process with this piece has been a protracted labor.  I'd push to get it out, and something else would push back – "not yet".  One week stretched into two, then almost three.

       Occasionally in this space, I allude to my belief that we are connected to, inseparable from, and continually in dialog with a wise and loving universe.  I locate that universe within us, between us and all around us.  Sometimes its dialog with us takes the form of outer experiences mirroring inner realities.

       Here's a story exploring, once again, those themes.

       One afternoon a month or so ago, frazzled at the office, meditation practice temporarily in tatters, attempting to multitask, just ending a call from Marisa (my daughter), I slapped my flip phone shut and shoved it hurriedly toward its holster on my hip.  The phone missed the opening and crashed to the floor.  A four-letter word burst from my lips.

       Bending down to pick up the phone, I saw that it was busted, really busted this time.  One of the flip's hinges was disconnected from the body of the phone and resisted every effort I made to reconnect it.  At the time, I thought of Humpty Dumpty, the fairy tale egg who had a great fall.  As I reflect now, I see a mirroring message: the phone's unhinging mirrored my own.

       With one hinge still in place, I could still make calls, but my trusty phone was clearly on its last legs.  And, just as clearly, I was disconnected from center.  Fortunately, a vacation was on the horizon – five days in Death Valley with Joanie and dear friends, Kirk and Dee.  I definitely needed a change of scenery.  Sometimes an outer change facilitates an inner shift.

       Death Valley is an eerily beautiful place – canyons, colors, magnificent rock uplifts and formations under blue, almost violet, cloudless sky.  Hiking through a particularly spectacular, narrow, winding, marble gorge, I wondered aloud about the origin of the word gorgeous:  "I bet it has something to do with gorges." 

       At 282 feet below sea level, Death Valley contains the lowest piece of real estate in the western hemisphere.   Some might say it's as close to hell as you can get.  I prefer to think that it's as close as we can get to the center.

       Anyway, there are salt flats in that deepest part of the valley – miles of salt-covered ground interrupted by fields of crystalline salt structures left behind after centuries of evaporating brine.  No two alike, the structures have an other-worldly quality about them.  If you're careful, you can walk out among the structures without disturbing them.  That's just what I did.

       Standing there, under fierce sunshine and surrounded by ancient crystals, a powerful healing energy washed over and through me, bringing release and relief – a softening, a centering, a letting go.  Easy breathing.  No hurry, no worry.  Everything's fine.

       Some time later that day, I noticed my inner jukebox.  It was playing a line from an old Donovan song:  "They call me mellow yellow".  And, sure enough, the rest of the trip was a gentle flow, definitely mellow.  Even now, Donovan's tune and lyric still visit me.

        Next day, we learned there was a short stretch of road in the park where cell service was available.  We stopped there to check messages, and I decided to call my good friend and spiritual companion, Rich, whose birthday was the previous day.  After a lovely conversation, affirming once again the beauty of all, I re-entered the Jeep.  With cell phone held loosely in my left hand, I eased into the driver's seat and, just as I reached with that same hand to close the door, the phone slipped from my grasp and landed on the hard-packed desert gravel.

       Not the least bit dismayed, I released all attachment to the phone.  I assumed it was finished.  I felt at peace.  Bending down to pick it up, I was surprised to see that it wasn't in pieces.  In fact, it was completely healed.  The separated hinge was re-connected to the body of the phone, with no trace of its former injury.  Stunned, I stared for a bit, tested the mechanism a couple times, then laughed in amazement.

       The scientist in me says: "What a lucky accident."  The mystic, whom I tend to trust more in these matters, says: "What a lovely communication."

       Nice mirror.  Nice healings.  Nice sense of humor.

Storied Life

Journey's backpack

Is loaded with stories.

Some are painful,

Tormenting tales –

Stories that shake us.

Dramas of danger

Unworthiness, too,

Old, told, re-told:

Familiar sequence,

Familiar finale.

Into the drama

We invite our pals,

Assigning roles

We wish

Weren't played.

Can we attend to story?

Claim authorship

And authority?

Can we let it be ours

And not about them?

Can we honor the wound

That sources sad story,

Treating it tenderly

With mercy and care,

Bathing in light?

We're all story tellers,

Writing in pencil.

Let's observe.

Let's edit.

It's our nature to heal.

Inner Life

       Lately, I've been living outside of my insides.  Soon, hopefully, I'll return to the interior and bring back something to share.  Meanwhile, here's another short poem from Lao Tzu.

Knowing others is intelligence;

knowing the self is enlightenment.

Conquering others is power;

conquering the self is strength.

Know what is enough, and you'll be rich.

Persevere, and you'll develop a will.

Remain in the center, and you'll always

be at home.

Die without dying, and you'll endure forever.

       This short poem was inspired by recent events in Tucson and a famous quote from the writings of Rumi:  "Beyond ideas of right and wrong, there is a field.  I will meet you there."

Rumi-Nation

Making you wrong

Doesn't make me right.

Can we opt now for peace?

And let go of the fight?

Do we want to be happy

Or prefer to be right?

Insisting truth is all ours

Makes sphincters too tight.

Once we leave the arena

Of who's wrong and who's right,

We can meet in the meadow

And play in soft light.

Embracing Emptiness

       At the suggestion of a good friend, I have selected Lao Tzu's Tao Te Ching, translated by Brian Browne Walker, as the text for spring semester's Thursday night growth group.  It's an ancient Chinese book that packs amazing wisdom in 81 short poems. 

       Apropos, perhaps, to 2011, here's the 11^th poem.  Enjoy!

Thirty spokes meet at a hollowed-out hub;

         the wheel won't work without its hole.

 A vessel is moulded from solid clay;

        Its inner emptiness makes it useful.

To make a room, you have to cut doors and windows;

        without openings, a place isn't livable.

To make use of what is here,

        you must make use of what is not.